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Clouded (Atmosphere Edition)

by This Wild Life

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Anna 🍌
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Anna 🍌 This song and then discovering this wild life helped me get through things I'd been dealing with the past two years.
Ive been a fan of pop-punk since I was a teen and they have the unique sound and talent of combining acoustics with the pop-punk style and rythm and bloody nail it!
Lastly I love the personal lyrics I think it's honestly what makes the band stand out its not generic lyrics it's real and you can really feel and connect with it.
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john huppert Absolutely amazing album, cant wait for more acoustic goodness. Favorite track: Sleepwalking [Live Session].
Josh Cook
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Josh Cook An absolutely beautiful album that brings songs that would fit right into the pop punk world and strips them back. The emotional lyrics mixed with catchy instrumentals help make this one of those albums that you want to sing-out-loud from start to finish. A stunning record that will stick with me for many years to come. Favorite track: Roots and Branches (Meant To Be Alone).
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1.
Concrete 04:03
I've got feet like concrete And a head like lead God I feel so heavy I give up and head home I just want to be left alone Woah I treated you with honesty, honestly You promised me promised me Woah You said that you were sorry you're far away You'd always come back for me You're break breaking your word I don't care what you heard Cause you fucked up, yeah you fucked up Yeah, I thought we'd live off love But it was not enough, not enough And I just need a day To shed this dead weight And to get my head straight I just want to let go I just want to be left alone It was not enough. It was never enough.
2.
Over It 03:38
I've been dealing with pain With nothing to my name It's been eleven hundred days Since we've gone our separate ways Am I the one to blame? And do you feel the same? Does it have to be this way? I've gotta get over it And over you I'm starting to feel Starting to heal And you should too We were kids made mistakes Couldn't stay in one place So we ran away I've gotta get over it And over you Forget everything I said And I will do my best To get your voice out of my head You're just a shoebox under my bed The string that's binding my heart Is slowly raveling apart You took me for granted I caught you red handed I know I dragged us both through Hell But I wish you'd forgive yourself I think I learned a lesson too That I'm at my worst when I'm with you
3.
I thought we hit rock bottom And then the floor gave out The year you lost your health The year we lost our house I think the world has a way Of choosing the worst day To knock us down And drag us out But every door that's closed Opens a new window No more bad days It's clear from here No more bad days For you my dear Because my legs are strong My arms are stretched so long I will always reach for you Cause you are sweet and pure Yeah you are beautiful In everything you do You may have given up But I will lift you up I will always carry you Cause you are sweet and pure Yeah you are beautiful In everything you do I thought we hit rock bottom And then the floor gave out Yeah it was hard back then It's even harder now Cause when you're young and poor You hope for so much more I hope for rain to wash us clean And make a brand new start For both our tired hearts Resilience is my promise I'll never give up on us Just lift your head up higher I'll be here when you're tired And need some peace Just get some sleep
4.
History 03:52
You should not get What you have not earned What I do from here Is none of your concern It didn't work yeah I know it hurts But it's gotta give before it gets much worse Gotta give up on you We've got a lot of history But there's too much space between you and me You have plans, yeah I have dreams But do I have the guts in me? To leave, pack my shit and leave. The irony gets the best of me I'm sad that we split but you're still happy What I gave to you was more than memories What you took from me wasn't worth anything Gotta give up on you You never cared enough You never earned my trust You just took what you could get You never lift me up I never feel your love I know exactly what this is I'm tired of the weight when you lean on me If I fell you would never stay to carry me
5.
We lay on our backs out on the front yard Holding your right hand, I say life’s been so hard The shade of the tree we planted It grew strong with roots and branches But it’s just not ours anymore We build these walls high, they blend into the sky Thick skin and bones defend us from outside The way we lost it all, I think it made you strong But I don’t feel that anymore I feel nothing at all, yeah I trip and I fall Running straight into walls while you’re suffering withdrawals When will I ever get a better hand? I am losing my hope and it hurts in my throat Have my back to the coast at the end of my rope Oh, will I ever be a better man? Am I meant to be alone? We lay on our backs on the hood of my car Holding my right hand, you point out the North Star Show me the way ahead, guide me with light I said Cause I can’t see straight anymore Everyone left me all at once then Honestly, I couldn’t even blame them I’ve been a shitty friend I don’t know where you went I just can’t handle any more I feel nothing at all, yeah I trip and I fall Running straight into walls while you’re suffering withdrawals When will I ever get a better hand? I am losing my hope and it hurts in my throat Have my back to the coast at the end of my rope Oh, will I ever be a better man? Am I meant to be alone?
6.
You get me so worked up my ears are red hot Pressure me to be something that I'm not Well forget it you can't have it I'll never fit your mold This shit is getting old I try to be the one that you can count on I fought it tooth and nail but you were just gone So forget it you can't have it I'll never be the one I am the setting sun I"m reckless and selfish I'm feeling defenseless Even at my best I'm still feeling like a mess I'm not proud of who I've been I know I've gotta grow I live with a temper That never gets better It's ripping me to shreds It's still burning in my head I'm not proud of who I've been I know I've gotta grow I know I overreact to every comment It takes me deeper than ever into resentment So forget it you can't have it I'll never fit your mold This shit is getting old I know I question myself at every moment Every flaw on the surface you make me show it So forget it you can't have it I'll never be the one I am the rising sun I'm bound to break if I stay the same With all my weight I will force a change Cause in my skin is the sunlight And in my heart there is still a fight
7.
I swear I see the seasons change More often than I see your face November came and went The Summer left without a trace And I'm left with distance on my mind Was it me that caused you to just pack up and leave? When you did you took everything I just hate seeing you without me I'm better with you, you're better with me I still miss all our nights Even fights were all better with you You're better with me There is nobody else who can love me the way that you do Better than you I still miss all our days and the way you would carry me through I'll carry you too There is nobody else who could love you the way that I do Who can love you the way that I do? You filled my place with his embrace His touch was cold, you never came You filled a hole that's in my soul I wish you felt the same But is it too late for things to change? It was you, because leaving is just what you do When you finally have something to lose I just don't feel the same without you If there's a way that we can learn to forgive There's nothing that I wouldn't give There's still a space that I have buried away It's deep in my heart, it's always your place
8.
Looking Back 03:52
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Don't Say 03:52
You left me here and I didn't care I'd follow you almost anywhere I didn't mind that you left Just don't say it's over Was life so bad on the West Coast? Is desert air what you needed most? You're on my mind even though I know that it's over I can't wait forever, for you to grow up I swore I'd never, have to give you up at all But won't you get away And just give me space I'm much too young to be in love A year behind never catching up I'm scared to death when we share blood You're never sober You fight and shove when you're angry Were you stable before you met me? You kick and scream when we're ending There's no way it's over Did you forget the way you felt in my bed? The way it felt when I said that you're all I have Did you forget to pack your heart when you left? When we're apart I'm a mess, but you're all I have
10.
405 03:38
I'm jealous of the life you're living I never made the best decisions I learn the hard way or not at all I wouldn't answer when you called I never know where I am heading I feel like there's something missing I made my choice and found my voice I never know what's down this road Sometimes when I drive Southbound windows down the 405 The Summer air, we're singing loud We can take this road almost anywhere And sometimes, yeah I'm fine I'm Northbound hoping that I'll be alright I need you here right by my side I'm learning how to really live my life I'm moving slower now than ever I try to hold it all together My eyes are wide yet my mind is tired I fall asleep in between your lines I wonder was it worth this last year If things get worse will you still be here? I made my choice and found my voice Will you still be here if I go?
11.
Stay Up Late 03:56
I was hoping that you'd stay Cause tonight I wanna stay up late I was hoping that you'd say You were feeling lonely just like me I'm still hoping that you're happy Cause you know I can barely stand up straight I'm still hoping that I can be Everything that you would ask of me But am I all wrong, long gone, too far from your heart? Last year was hard, I fell apart. I know you don't feel this way but I'll try to convince you so If it's lust, or if it's fate I hope you pick up this late I've been missing how we'd pretend Cause tonight I really need a friend We pretended we were happy Maybe we can try and start again I never thought that we'd end up like this But this cycle we're in makes me sick It's a long shot and I can tell Another coin in the wishing well Honestly if I'm being honest with myself I know which way you fell You don't love me I can tell
12.
It's Alright 03:49
I'm losing trust in you These things I'd never ever do to you I'll find a back door, I'll run for it A back door, I'll run for it I'm losing faith in you It's alright, it's alright I was second best, but you're still stuck in my head It's alright, it's alright Taking slower breaths but I'm still the same mess All my days are colored grey I'll find a way to make you say It's alright, it's alright I'll be second best, but you're still fucked in the head You know I'd wait for you And so you use it when you need to prove That I can't find a back door, or run for it A back door, or run for it I've lost my faith in you You don't know what you're missing I can't get it through your thick fucking head You heard what I said I couldn't change your decision I fought day in day out until my knuckles bled You loved him instead Don't know what else to do Cause I've got nothing left to lose but you
13.
There's a lump in my throat from the words I chose I cut for the bone and I drove it home Gotta cut you out from in my head Don't leave me be Cause I don't know if you can be alone with me You don't or you won't just love yourself And I can't even stand to ask for help But I'm begging you to let me out I'm begging you don't let me down You can't or you won't just let this end And I can't even tell just where you went But I'm begging you to let me in And let me love you cause I know you can't Times they change but you stay the same Sweep it under the rug for another day If you're listening then meet me halfway It's not about what's best, but what's best for you I can't love myself living like we do You're not alone If you shut me out, I'm kicking that door down You've gotta stop stop living so deep underground Before you're gone
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credits

released June 9, 2015

This Wild Life is:

Kevin Jordan - Vocals and Guitar
Anthony Del Grosso - Guitar

String performances:
Anne Parrette - Cello
Joshua Dampier - Violin and Viola

Produced and Engineered by Aaron Marsh at the Vanguard Room in Lakeland, FL
Mixed and Mastered by Jason Suwito at Noise Coalition in Costa Mesa, CA
Artwork and Layout by Dustin Jordan and Jason Link
Management: Eric Rushing and Will Stevenson at the Artery Foundation
Booking: Dave Shapiro (US) and Tom Taaffe at the Agency Group
All songs and lyrics written and recorded by This Wild Life

Kevin thanks: Janice and Dustin Jordan, Sarah Noice and the Noice Family, Mikey Hoefnagel and the Hoefnagel Family, David Seastead, Spencer Baldwin, Alex Bemis, Aaron Marsh, Jason Suwito, Matt Wilbur, Matt Burns, Eric Rushing, Will Stevenson, Dave Shapiro, Epitaph Records, the Greenery, Emery, the Classic Crime, Being As An Ocean, Secrets, and last but not least our fans. Our band is very fortunate that people care about our music as much as we do, and I'm forever grateful for our opportunity to do what we love.

Anthony thanks: Anthony thanks: My parents Frank and Cindy and my two brothers Dave and Frank who have been so supportive of me throughout my pursuit of playing music. My girlfriend Bailey and her amazing family. All my friends back in Pittsburgh and in California who put up with all the videos I sent them and asked them to share for years now. Jason Suwito for helping us on on so many different occasions. Aaron Marsh for helping us make this record. Last but not least Sidney Crosby for bringing hockey back to Pittsburgh.

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